Friday, November 11, 2011

Some Recommendations

I don't rec a lot, but I have recently begun to read several AH (all-human) Twilight fanfictions and I thought I'd share, in case that's your cup of tea.

Welcome to Las Vegas by Firewings 312  http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7365183/1/Welcome_to_Las_Vegas

An Eternity to Love by Mizzdee  http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7070245/1/

Unexpected Circumstances by Savage7289 (recently completed)  http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6496709/1/  This one was lucky enough to have a small portion read by Michael Sheen -- who plays Aro in the Twilight Saga movies -- here's the youtube video:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mKXQNDlle5k&feature=related

You Belong to Me by TwidictedByrd  (strong subject matter, but that part doesn't last long)  http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6903424/1/

A Forbidden Love by TwiLoverSue  http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7455169/1/

Torn by Dooba (also, strong subject matter that is the basis for this story but not the focus) http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6356034/1/

and:

Behind Steel Bars by TwilightAddict71484  http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7123387/1/

This is not ALL of the AH that I'm reading and not a complete list, by far, but just the latest to update and ones that I feel certain will be completed eventually.

As you know, one of my pet peeves is great fanfictions that start off with a bang and then are just abandoned...I wouldn't rec if I thought we'd all be left high and dry. These stories either update on a regular basis, the authors have completed other stories, or I have corresponded with them and feel certain they won't bail on us just as we get really interested.

I hope you enjoy these recs and I will send through some vampire-based recs in the next few days. Of course, there are many more of them, but as I'm sure you do, I have discriminating tastes and want to make sure I send you only the best!

Enjoy your weekend!

*hugs* Dance






Tuesday, November 08, 2011

Who Left Their Cell Phone on at the Breaking Dawn Wedding?

Who Left Their Cell Phone on at the Breaking Dawn Wedding?

Thursday, June 02, 2011

You're Welcome

You're Welcome
by: Cindy Nicholson
2010 on Facebook

They say his smile is 'nice to see'.
(That smile was first put there by ME.)

'Deserved happiness' they readily give to him.
(He was empty...I filled him up again.)

They say he walks taller now, there's no hesitancy to be found.
(It took all the strength I could muster...straining...I picked him up from the ground.)

He was cheated. He was broken. He'd been thrown away like trash.
(I consoled and I mended and I polished him like brass.)

Although I didn't know it...for he swore to ME he was true...
God had different plans for the three of us:
My job was to make him a whole man again, for YOU.

Those sweet words he says to you
while 'making love' or just watching TV:
A promise here...heavy praise there...
ALL he first tried out on me.

As women we know just the words even the surest man wants to hear...
it's always something like: "Of course you're the best EVER dear."

He thanked me as his 2nd lover for assuring him I was pleased.
He'd been made aware there were 'several women' already on their knees...
A couple who were persistent (including YOU no doubt)...
and some 'single friends of friends' (you know the type) that he'd just heard about.

The last time that I saw him, for our date that night he couldn't even wait!
He said he had to come right away..our date he had to break.

"I don't want to be tied down again...I was for 30 years."
He watched my face as he said these words (I think he expected TEARS).

He wanted his freedom and he wanted it "NOW".
He was ready to play the field and he thanked me for showing him how:
-- to make a woman happy
-- to make a woman swoon
--to woo her and win her and move along to send the next one round the moon.

I've read his STATUS SHUFFLES...
hearts and flowers and 'love' abounds.
But be mindful of the subtext, which is:
"I'll see you around."

I'm sure you think I'm just bitter...or jealous...or something of that kind.
But from this day forward keep my words in the back of your mind.

It's stupid not to be aware, in the year 2010
of the 'love 'em and leave 'em'...'I just got my freedom'...
'you're just a revenge fuck' type of men.

Of course, I can't be certain that he's lying to you so then
I'll bring my cautionary tale to it's inevitable end.

Remember that *I* rebuilt him from the most defeated...broken...
mess you'll ever see.

So if HE makes you happy....YOU CAN JUST THANK ME.

(You're welcome.)

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Someday by duskri123: Chapter 23 Teaser

Someday by duskri123: Chapter 23 Teaser: "Here is a teaser for chapter 23. When will it be out? Hard to say, I'm not even finished it yet but this part is unmovable in what I do have..."


To my Twilight fan friends: if you are not reading THIS twilight Jasper/Bella fanfic, you need to start now! One of the BEST ever!

Friday, May 14, 2010

My Heart

I hear my heart beating
and I wonder "why"?
I also wonder 'how'?

The poor thing has been so broken so many times it's full of scar tissue.
Yet it throbs rhythmically as if nothing happened, as if it didn't have to survive you.

Maybe it has no memory and once the pain has passed it just continues to thrum.
Or it could just be keeping up appearances...like always cleaning your front room
in case a visitor shows up, you don't want the front room to be trashed.
In case you see a doctor or someone who would notice a silence in your chest.

But HOW, with all the pain..the real physical pain I endure on a never-ending basis...it certainly has to strain the organ like my brain helps me make the correct faces.

I sometimes wonder if these organs are NOT our friends.
If without them we'd have come to a much more dignified end.

And yet it keeps pumping and wordlessly encourages
it pisses me off sometimes that's it's so insistent
so unphased by the ravages.

So tonight, here we sit, my heart and I
I say 'I'm tired' it won't even say 'goodbye'
Instead it's more "no, you're not...I have a secret"
But it never shares it's surprise...just makes me wait for it.

My heart doesn't falter and it never takes a break
Maybe it's another source that encourages it, for heaven's sake!
You'd think it could share some of that constant enthusiasm with me.
You'd think I'd be smart enough to know that what it does...it does for me.

My heart won't win any awards..in it's future there's no special acclaim
It's one job, it's purpose, is me. It has no room or time for blame.
It just thrums happily along setting the example I should follow.
Hell, it's midnight, maybe I'll feel better tomorrow.


Monday, April 19, 2010

OK, I'm OBSESSED

I'm sorry I haven't written in a while, but I've been busy. I've been playing on Facebook, sure, Twitter....not as much as I used to...Big Brother...not on for a couple months yet.

No, the object of my obsession is..*drumroll*: TWILIGHT, specifically: EDWARD CULLEN.

Ok, I know what you're thinking..."where's she been, under a rock somewhere?"

No...not quite that out of the loop...but, I just don't do vampires. I have a strict policy (actually, my discerning spirit has it's way with me)...I don't DO vampires/evil/torture/horror movies. I've been known to literally run from the room or theater when these movies are on.

I once tried (actually 3 times) to read "Interview with a Vampire" ..Anne Rice's vampire book that was made into a movie. I couldn't even hold it in my hands it so unsettled my SPIRIT...Finally, after the 3rd try reading it, I threw the new, unread paperback in my kitchen trash can..that wasn't far enough away..I had to DIG IT OUT and take it OUTSIDE to the big trashcans near the street!!!! It SO COMPLETELY unnerved me.

So, what, 15 years or so later??..enter: Twilight by Stephenie Meyer

*sigh* Mercy...just another movie I won't watch. Well, I don't know what happened..I'm not sure what lured my 'discernment' away for a few minutes (probably the fact that I have been in soooo much pain and stuck in my house with only the internet and the regular tv shows that I watch)..but, Twilight came on Showtime and BAM! I was THERE!!

I waded in...I'll give it 5 minutes...no...I don't feel any evil twinges coming from it...ok 10 minutes..still nothing...before I knew it, I was falling head over heels for a VAMPIRE!!!

A half-century of resolve to NEVER watch any evil content just evaporated as these two kids(I use the term loosely in Edward's case), Edward & Bella were finding themselves in a love affair that simply would NOT be denied. To say they are 'starcrossed lovers' really doesn't define their particular situation: She's a human girl, an extraordinary one, but human..and he's a Vampire. Think of that age-old adage: A fish and a bird can fall in love but, where would they LIVE?

Over the last couple of years, as my health has gotten worse, I lost most of my earthly possessions waiting on disability (house, car, etc.), I lost my boyfriend (his last words to me "I'll call you tomorrow"..it'll be 2 years in October..lol...human men *rolls eyes*), and just general disappointment in all things 'true love' had described, and promised, killed any feelings that I might have of a romantic nature...or so I thought!!!

Imagine my surprise when from within me PASSION re-emerged...my heart would quicken along with Bella's..tears fell...chills covered my body...and, when at the end of the 2nd movie of the series "New Moon" Edward says to Bella "..and then forever...marry me" I swear, you'd have thought Edward was on his knees in front of me!!! I squealed...I felt the electric shock to my TOES, I kid you not.

I have certainly done hours of introspection on this completely new, to me, passion, obsession, hunger to know MORE and MORE about these characters and WHY did I have such a strong reaction to them. Now, NOBODY would have ever accused me of having no passion...no emotions...no heart...honey, it's the stuff I'm made of instead of blood, skin, and bones!!! But, for a VAMPIRE!!

OK, so let's be practical..vampires are fictional characters..Stephenie Meyer's vampires are extremely GOOD people (forgive the term)...they have chosen to accept their lot in 'life' and attempt to do GOOD..not just GOOD, the GREATER GOOD. Now, THAT's MY THING!!

I believe the other main draw for me..and what SURPRISINGLY had both my sons gagging at their mother's choice of OBSESSION..is the fact that EDWARD IS THE PERFECT MAN.

I expected my sons to be thrilled that their mother actually broke down her wall and enjoyed a 'supernatural' (if you will) movie. But no, they were actually VERY condescending about my choice. My oldest son (25) simply can't get past the part where Edward sparkles in the sun..fine..whatever..I'm not sure exactly why my youngest (15) doesn't care for him..but I have a theory. You might want to get a drink here, this might take a minute or two...lol.

As I stated above, Edward IS the perfect man (if you can get past the un-dead part). He's spent enough time learning, looking, becoming an ADULT for heaven's sake! He KNOWS what he doesn't want, if still being in the shadows on what he DOES want. But when he sees, meets, gets to know Bella..EDWARD KNOWS WHAT HE WANTS. That's extremely important!

Next, EDWARD KNOWS THE VALUE OF LOVE (he's lived for decades with 3 perfectly-matched pair of lovers..the outsider..the only one without a mate. He's seen the joy of love, the value of a partner, companion, commitment, a plus-one.

EDWARD KNOWS HOW LUCKY HE IS to have FOUND someone who by all rights has been made just for him by some creator: she's his FAVORITE smell ("my own personal brand of heroin" to use HIS words), she's FEARLESS (he IS a monster after all), she's trustworthy, loyal, and devoted (all things a woman would HAVE to be to be in a relationship with someone from his world). Miraculously, he's found the ONE PERSON who was made JUST FOR HIM.

EDWARD IS WILLING TO FIGHT FOR AND PROTECT BELLA, from rapist/murderers, from other boys at the school who would love to have her for themselves, from HIS OWN FAMILY, and even from HIMSELF at times.

As a couple Edward and Bella are extremely powerful: He's their MIGHT...She's their SOUL...together, they are their HEART.

My mother says I'm drawn to the Protector in Edward and I have to agree that could be it, for a large part..but, I KNOW I'm drawn to Edward because he's a HERO, he's devoted, he's true...EDWARD IS THE MAN THAT ALL WOMEN WANT THEIR MEN TO BE...and WOMEN (including the girls my youngest goes to school with) have GONE WILD!

Let's face it...in books, magazines, tv, music, and especially movies...over the last 3 decades or so...women have been told what we are supposed to LOOK like (we've had so many boobs thrown in our faces, on the screen, that we can't even work up the embarrassment to blush anymore...our righteous indignation has laid down it's sword and just accepted it ... and, the plastic surgeons, diet-food companies/gyms, and, cosmetic companies are making a killing. We've tried so hard not to get old that some of my favorite actresses look like they are standing in wind tunnels (their faces pulled and cut and sewn back so far), their lips look like trouts they have been shot so full of fillers, hair extensions, thin to the point of looking like the suffer from malnutrition..their breasts look like cantaloupes sewn under their skin..it's RIDICULOUS! But it's done now..that's just the way it is.

Enter Edward Cullen...finally...after 30 years of hearing WHAT WOMEN ARE SUPPOSED TO LOOK LIKE TO BE DESIRABLE...Edward is telling MEN HOW TO ACT.

...and THEY HATE IT!! lmbo...women, go ahead and have one of those HUGE belly-laughs that shakes your whole body and produces those endorphins!!

Yes, men...EDWARD CULLEN is YOUR wake-up call! It's time for chivalry...remember how to open a door and pick up a check?? It's time for COMMITMENT...no more of this "what I don't do for my man some other woman will" attitude...make some money (we're tired of supporting you)...and, you better find that girl and be true to her. Men, KNOW YOUR MIND...if you say it you better mean it...if you ask for it, be grateful for receiving it...and, if you want her, deserve her!!

Ultimately, I LOVE EDWARD CULLEN for being THAT GUY...no, he's not perfect..no woman ever expects her man to be perfect (it's your imperfections that endear you to us)...but be OUR OWN brand of heroin...be addicted to us...be obsessed with us...love us...tell us you love us and mean it...see ONLY us (no, you're not blind but that is certainly NO EXCUSE for ogling and then comparing us to some other woman. AND, last but certainly not least...FIGHT TO KEEP US...keep us safe, keep us happy, keep us in your heart and mind...you will NOT regret it.

Men, TWILIGHT and EDWARD CULLEN are YOUR goal...it's your map to a woman's head and heart...it's your mission statement...it's your example of what your woman wants. But, as usual, (and believe me, women are used to being disappointed..our expectations have fallen so low they barely have a heartbeat) it's YOUR choice.

Be THAT GUY, please? We'll be THAT GIRL..it's in our nature, we're hard-wired to please you when we aren't having to spend all our time, energy, attention, and money surviving you.

Thank you Stephenie Meyer, Bella, but most of all: THANK YOU EDWARD CULLEN for waking up the girl in me and reminding me that love still exists.